In our quest to find everything that is wrong in the world, and those in it, we may overlook what is right in the world. So this blog, after an uncertain start, will head in that direction.
Veterans Day 2014. Remembering our veterans and their sacrifices.
On the first Saturday in December, an army of volunteers - Boy Scouts, history buffs, local residents - descends on the Antietam battlefield in Maryland, and spends the whole day setting up luminaries in perfect lines simulating a military cemetery. How many? One for each casualty of the bloodiest single day in American military history: 23,000 men were killed, wounded, missing by the end of the day on September 17, 1862.
The park is closed in the afternoon - cars line up for hours, and then at 6:00 p.m. you are allowed to drive through. Waiting in a line of cars several miles long, it took us several hours to get to the park entrance - but once inside, you are overwhelmed by what 23,000 lives look like on the field in which they made their sacrifice.
Barb and I visited in 2012. And discovered some special significance for us. My GG Grandfather Samuel Humes was there that day, wearing blue. His regiment, the 1st Pa. Light Artillery was kept in reserve on the hillside behind the Union line that was ordered to cross at Burnside's Bridge.
Samuel Humes
Quartermaster Sergeant
1st Pa. Light Artillery
And Barb's GG Grandfather Henry Virginius Moore? He was there too - wearing gray - on the heights opposite the Union position at Burnside's bridge.
Henry Virginius Moore
6th Virginia infantry
Burnside's Bridge, viewed from the Confederate side.
Both men survived the day, and served through the end of the war. And then went home, tried to forget all of the horrors that they had seen for five years, and re-joined their communities, and raised their families.
Later we returned to our B&B - up on South Mountain overlooking the glowing fields. Very moving from that vantage point as well - 23,000 lives lost or forever changed that day. And the ripple effect on their loved ones - families left to deal with the loss. And this was just the cost of one bloody day in one extended bloody war. The loss that day was staggering. Multiply that loss by all of the battles of that war, and all of the battles of each war in our history. And the ripples that spread out over millions and millions of families throughout history.
It is good to remember these men (and women) and to honor them on Veterans Day, and every day. And it is also good to see the immense scale of loss with your own eyes, to try to comprehend so many lives changed, shattered bodies, shattered minds, shattered families, widows, orphans, and communities devastated when war descends on them and demands its payment.
When we appreciate the full cost of war, we may be less inclined to rush into it.
So why is this something that is right with the world?
We went there to see the luminaries, and tour the battlefield and cemetery, that day and the next. At night, we were in a beautiful B&B, the Antietam Overlook Farm. My wife was tuckered out from the day. But I wanted to check out the hot tub, outdoors and overlooking the battlefield. Sitting there by myself, warming my insides with a glass of brandy made available by the B&B, I was awash in thoughts - feeling a bit guilty looking down and knowing that Samuel Humes had been down there under much less pleasant conditions. And I knew Barb's ancestor had been a Southern soldier, but at that point I did not know where he had served. But I knew he was a Virginian - and figured he had to be with Robert E. Lee's Army of Northern Virginia - and so he would very likely have been there at Antietam. And whether it was the brandy or not, I sensed that we four were all connected to this place.
It had not been my idea to come down here - it had been Barbs. And she did not know of her connection to it or mine. She had simply read about the luminaries and suggested it to me. But at home that Sunday I went right to my research, dug out my notes on Henry Virginius Moore, found his regiment, the 6th Virginia, and found out where he was on the Antietam battlefield: on the right wing facing off at Burnside's Bridge opposite Samuel Humes.
The weekend would have been a wonderful moving experience, even without the personal connections. But knowing the genealogy, and knowing the history, it becomes a much more meaningful moment for us. The payoff for hundreds of hours of genealogy research. Making those connections to place, and through that, having a better understanding of the lives of those ancestors who passed through that same space, gives more meaning to both. That's what is right about the world.
Thank you to the men and women of our military, for their sacrifices that enable us to enjoy our freedoms.
For more info on the annual Antietam luminaries, go here:
Several years ago, we took a family vacation to the Canadian
Rockies. We went primarily to attend the
100th anniversary of the Calgary Stampede, and to see for the first
time the beautiful Canadian Rocky Mountains.
Our home base was a time-share in Canmore, one of the locations for the
1988 Calgary Winter Olympics, about an hour west of Calgary. Canmore is a resort town at the foot of a
range of mountains that runs north as far as the eye can see. On the descent in the airplane, and then on
the road from Calgary, we could see the mountains that we were headed for, but
by the time we arrived, late at night after a full day of travel, we were
tired, and simply wanted to find our rooms, get our luggage in, and have the fight
over who gets what bedroom, and who sleeps on the couch. And as the adults, we knew we would not be
sleeping on the couch. The woman at the reception desk explained what
we needed to know, and mentioned those words that a coffee addict lives to hear: free coffee in the lobby starting at 6:00
a.m.
The next morning, I was out to the lobby at 6:00 a.m. for
the coffee. I saw several people outside,
looking up, and so went out to see what they were seeing. The sun was coming up behind us, and putting
on a spectacular light show on the flat vertical face of the mountain that rose
up behind our development. The mountain looked
a bit like the vertical face of Half Dome in Yosemite – a mountain cleaved in
half, with just the bare vertical face of it rising up and presenting itself
for the morning sunshine to play on its surface. God’s large screen HD television.
Barb came out to join me, and we simply watched the show, the
warm orange of the morning sun lighting up the mountain face and turning the
grey stone into a colorful montage that changed every few minutes. I had my coffee, she had her tea, there was a
cool breeze so we had light sweatshirts on, the children were still sleeping,
we had successfully traveled a large part of the continent to get there the day
before, and this was Miller Time – just standing in awe of something that we
had never seen before – the Canadian Rocky Mountains. Some of the most memorable experiences of
life can be that simple.
As I found out later, that mountain that put on a show for
us each morning had a name, an unusual name, and a story behind it. It had for years been called Chinaman’s Peak,
but in a politically correct age, the name had been changed to Ha Ling
Peak. Both names refer to the same man –
Ha Ling – a cook working for the Canadian Pacific Railway in 1896. The crew was in Canmore, where you can look
west and see the peak, and in what sounds like a bar bet, Ha Ling was offered
$50 if he could climb the mountain, plant a flag on the summit, and be back to
Canmore in 10 hours. He took the bet,
climbed the mountain, was back with time to spare, and collected his $50. And his name has been associated with the
mountain ever since.
Each morning I would repeat the first morning’s routine,
grab my coffee and go out and watch the show on Ha Ling. On this and surrounding mountains, you could
see the tree line – the place on the mountain above which nothing grows. I thought to myself “I’ve never been above
the tree line.” Lots of symbolism in
that thought. I’ve never been above the
tree line in life. I’ve read with
enthusiasm about men climbing mountains, but I have never been one of those
men. I wondered if people climbed up Ha
Ling – I never saw anyone on top. How long
did it take? How difficult was it? Could you do it without gear? Not on the sheer face we looked out on. Maybe there was a back door? I wonder what the view is like up there?
We had arrived in Canmore on Saturday. I enjoyed the morning coffee and the view all
week. And then in the Thursday
newspaper, on the front page, there was a story that grabbed me and shook
me: Richard Guy had climbed Ha Ling the
previous Saturday. In the words of the
article “the 95 year old mathematician made the slow, steady six-hour hike to
the top of the mountain, gaining 8109 metres of elevation along the way with
single minded fashion.” Richard and his
wife had climbed the peak about 20 times together, but she had passed away a
few years before. He wanted to climb it
one last time in his life in her memory.
And so he set out early Saturday morning, and he and his friends made
the summit, raised a glass of single-malt scotch in celebration, and then “Coming
down was the real test. Richard had to
dig down deep … He was down to running on empty, but he joked he didn’t have a
choice”.
While I was sitting there each morning with my coffee, navel
gazing and wondering whether I had the guts to get above the tree line, 95 year
old Richard Guy was out there doing it. He
climbed Ha Ling. A part of me, the lesser
part, thought “If a 95 year old can do this, then I can do this too.” And the better part of me thought “Richard
Guy must be one tough bird. A real 10 on
the Man Scale. God bless him.”
We had a day of activities planned for that Thursday, and at
the end of the day, we were in a pub in Canmore – and could see the mountain beckoning
to me in the distance. No doubt just like that day in 1896, when Ha Ling took
the dare – after a few beers, anything seems possible. In your mind, of course. But Ha Ling the cook got up the next morning and
did the climb. Ha Ling was a 10 on the Man Scale. Richard Guy too. We were leaving Canmore on Saturday. If I was going to do anything, about climbing
Ha Ling, it would have to be the next day.
Back at the time share, I found information about the trails
leading up to the peak on the internet. You
could not approach from the eastern face that we saw. You had to drive about five miles to the back
side of the mountain, park, and find the trail that led up the mountain. I bounced the idea of doing the climb off my
wife, a fount of wisdom and common sense. Opposites attract. She was not thrilled. I had two heart
stents put in about six months earlier, and was proposing to go out there on my
own, inexperienced in mountain climbing, in a place where we had been told
about what evasive action to take if we came across bears and mountain lions, and
so she imagined the worst. But I was
determined to give it a try. Why? The age old question – “Why do men climb
mountains?” And the age old answer,
sufficient for most men: “Because they’re
there.”
On Friday, I was up in the dark, at 5:00 a.m. and found my
way to the trail head - a beautiful drive through the woods. I was the only car in the parking lot. Bears were on my mind as I headed to the
Porta Potty. Cautions from my readings –
berry season so they are out and about.
Look for scat. Be loud. Carry pepper spray. Travel in groups. If you encounter a black bear, you should
run; if it’s a grizzly, play dead. Or is
it the other way around? In the Porta
Potty, I heard noise outside. “Oh my God
– the bear has me trapped in the Porta Potty.
Can’t play dead in here. Could I
sprint to the car? Will he knock down
the whole damn thing to get at me? How
will I taste, covered in old crap and pee?
Or perhaps, just perhaps, it is not a bear.” I peeked out – no bear in sight. I tiptoed out, feeling like a 1 on the Man
Scale. Do I really have what it takes to
climb this thing? Or should I go home
and go back to bed? I headed off to the trailhead to find out.
The trail led through the woods – twisting and turning but
always going up. Zig zagging up. Some straight up. Some places where the trail was washed out
and so I detoured around and went up. I
had a day pack with food and water – so I would stop for a nip of water and to
catch my breath. The first 20-30 minutes
I was gulping for breath, could feel my heart racing a bit – but then as my
body warmed up, it all started coming together.
The breath, the heart, the mind – finally stopped looking for bears and bear
poop at every step. You have to pay
attention to your footing – so you are looking down a bit – but also taking in
the surroundings. An hour into the
climb, I was feeling pretty good.
About an hour and a half into the climb, I finally came to
the tree line. The walk in the woods
ended – the trail itself largely ended.
The view spread out – you could see up the mountain – nothing but
mountain in front of you – and the surface was rocky. Not a tree, not a bush. You picked and chose your line of ascent – at times the
rocks slid away beneath your feet – at other times there were stretches of bare
rock path with solid footing. You could
not see “the top” – you simply looked up and the saw the mountain sloping up
and away from you – and then it ended in the distance and the sky began. I was above the tree line – and feeling good
about life. Feeling fully alive.
As I got higher, the destination came into view. The peak is not actually a single peak – this
is a range of mountains and they are connected at the shoulder, and so there
comes a point when you choose to head to one or the other places. Up ahead was a giant U – a saddle (see first photo). A peak on either side, and a lower and
closer edge of the mountain in the middle. I headed
for the edge. At that point, I could look
to either side and see a peak, and straight ahead, the earth fell away and you
could see the entire Canmore valley below.
Mountains in the distance. Mountains
everywhere. Beautiful Canadian Rocky
Mountains. I headed left towards the
summit of Ha Ling. Still heading up –
but within reach. The footing was still
rocky, still climbing up, but in a few minutes I was there – as high as you can
go on Ha Ling.
The view was wonderful.
I could see down to our resort – did not see anyone out drinking coffee
and looking up, but waved down to them anyway.
I had my cell phone – it picked up a signal and so I tried calling Barb
to tell her I was safe at the top. Could
not get through – but then tried my daughter and left a message. We live in an incredible age of technology.
So what to do when you are up at the top and have taken in
the sights? I ate my peanut butter and
jelly sandwich and granola bar. Drank my
water. And entertained a guest – a chipmunk
was up there at the top with me. How did
he live up here? What on earth did he eat when there was not a visitor throwing
him bread and nuts? Did he retreat down
to the tree line for shelter come the winter?
How long must it take him to get there on those little legs – it was
twenty minutes away for me. Actually
longer going down – as I found out.
From the top where I was – Ha Ling simply ends – the sheer
face just drops down a long way. I had
my camera. Tried to capture what I was
seeing with photos. The battery light
was blinking at me – oh hell – not much battery juice left. I had what I thought was a brilliant idea. I set up the camera on a pile of rocks and
turned it to video. Scrambled out in front
of it – just at the edge. Gave my speech
(see link here for the actual video).
Tongue in cheek. Dancing on Ha
Ling peak with James Brown. The camera quit right as I
panned down the valley. But, I had a few
photos, a short video. Proof that I had
made it to the top.
I did not plant a flag.
It was enough that I was there – at 8:00 a.m. while the rest of you
ordinary mortals were sleeping or chowing down on your breakfast
sandwiches. I was standing on top of Ha
Ling. The first man to ever set foot on
it. Today at least. No one else in sight. Yes, 95 year old Richard Guy was here a week
ago. But he is a 10 on the Man
Scale. Ha Ling himself was here more
than a hundred years ago. Walked all the
way out from town and then climbed it and then back down and back to town. Definitely 10 on the Man Scale. And now, Doug Humes from Broomall,
Pennsylvania was here as well. Feeling
very full of himself. Feeling very “10
on the Man Scale”.
I said goodbye to my chipmunk friend, and began making my
way down. Down goes more slowly than
up. The rocks slide away under your
feet. Not big enough to start an
avalanche – but I could see how in the right circumstances a rock slide could
occur. I did not want to twist my ankle
up here – can’t out run a bear with a sprained ankle. So I went slowly. Eventually found my way to the tree line and
back into the woods. And within a few
minutes I heard voices, and soon the source came into view. Three young men – 20 somethings – carrying huge
packs on their backs. Were they going up
to camp? Above the tree line? At 9:00 a.m.?
We exchanged pleasantries.
“Are you going to camp up there?”
“Nah – we got parachutes. We’re
going to jump off.” “Where do you land?” “Down in the big field by the reservoir.” “Wow. Good luck with that!”
I had passed the reservoir on the drive in. I wondered whether I could get down the
mountain in time to drive back there and witness their flight. Probably not.
In hindsight I should have followed them back up and watched them
go. But people were waiting and worrying at home. And I had no battery juice left in
my camera. Does an event actually happen
if I am not there to take a picture of it?
I didn’t wait to find out.
After that encounter, I was feeling a bit deflated. If I was really a 10 on the Man Scale, what were
these guys? All I did was climb up the
damn thing. I didn’t have to eat that
chipmunk to survive. Didn’t have to cut
my arm off with a pen knife to get out of a tough fix. Didn’t have to drink my own blood or urine to
stay hydrated. Just climbed a moderately
strenuous peak, on a beautiful summer morning. And met three guys who had done
the same hike, with heavy packs, and were headed up to the top of it. To jump off. A thought that would never have
entered my mind.
In the movie “Spinal Tap”, the guitar player is asked about
his amp – and he proudly points out the volume setting – generally manufactured
with a range from one to ten. His volume
setting goes up to “Eleven”. And that morning,
I found out that so does the Man Scale.
I was still a Ten, but the young men I passed – they took it up to
Eleven. And they earned it. We all did.
It was a kick ass morning to be alive.